So finally blogged. Let's begin with the day when everyone came back from camp. Haha. They were all exhausted. Then out of the blue, oliver and josh told me that travis left . Erm.. so all I can say is good luck in YMCA. And happens that I was even sicker than before. Fever. Just dunno why whenever sth bad happens, I have a fever. 2 days without sleep. Was tired but I couldn't sleep. Not able to accept the fact. Monday back to school. Everyone was asking me the same question. "Are you unhappy?" Just tired of answering everyone. Things went well for a few days. Went abit hyper. Well... learnt from jackie. :) Few homework->more time to sort things out->rest time. (Just so free) But friday I didnt seem to be able to take it anymore. Everything's fine in the begining, but when days past by, somehow just give up acting I'm tired of acting. Faking a smile while hiding all the pain inside isn't a healthy way to do so. Thx Pauline, Jackie and YY for everything. It's been a great help. Thinking about my past. Sth happen like this before. And before I dun have any real friends to count on. You should noe wad to do. So the next week was distracted. Taking the wrong train, humilating myself in english class (God. why did I say a train ticket instead of a movie ticket?) almost called _______ instead___________.( If I realli say this out, wonder how am I going to fix this mess), doing my math h/w twice... (Ms chai must have think I am crazy) I gotta focus rite now. Have been drifting off in class... To be honest, I am never like this. Just rite now did many stuff at the last minute. Well.. it's something i need to get use to. Received Progress report. Hmm... dissapointed again. Haha. Jackie says Shopping helps when you are down. Hmm.. still thinking abt it so I dun think so. Maybe I just need some time to let go of this. It's sth hard but I have no choice too. So ending off here... I dun feel like writing anymore.
Oh I forgot. And also Josh, good luck in RCHK.
New blog. Didn't feel like using my old blog anymore. Just felt like starting fresh, forget about what happened before.
So back to my life. Well.. didnt update my old blog for more than three weeks. Many stuff happened during that period of time. People breaking up, people getting back together, new couples (Maybe?) People who aren't that trustable anymore. Everyone's changing. Well... for me... still the same me...didnt change that much. Change just to fit in somehow. Things have been hectic ever since start of Sec 3. 3 test in 4 days, GP essay+product, coping with subjects and demands. Only slept a few hours everyday. Suffering from Insomia. GP's killing me. Mr Ong told me that GP's easy. Hah! Like real. Many ups and downs for me. Suddenly things are perfect--the way I want it to be, the next second, everything's gone. Have been learning to face the truth and just move on. This guy have been telling me to stop being a goody goody or being too kind to people. To be honest, I am not the girl you think you see. Nobody knows the other side of me. The bad side in fact. Well.. I am not pretending to be a different person. I just didnt show the other side of me. And besides treating people nicely well at least lesser people hate me. Talk about my past... Hai. forget about mentioning it. It's disasterous. Anyway, Sec 3 is kinda of a bad start. People lying to each other... Just right now dunno who to trust. Even the closest friends can't be trusted. Ok maybe? Better to keep some stuff to yourself after all huh? And things are not meant to know, it's better not to. Cause it gets u to hell lot of trouble. Too much on my mind Maybe worth seeing a counselor again?
I am just tired of studying rite now. Just dun wanna touch the books and slack off instead. Realli lucky I got the permission not to go to camp. Actually, I wanna be alone and sort of my life instead. Hear my inner thoughts How am I going to deal with certain people, certain goals, certain choices. Everything's a mess.
May not be updating that often as last time anymore. Been coming back at 7pm and not enough time to do h/w. Right now sick...Had a bad sore throat and yet I have to shout at my sisters. So yeah g2g. Bye.
So finally blogged. Let's begin with the day when everyone came back from camp. Haha. They were all exhausted. Then out of the blue, oliver and josh told me that travis left . Erm.. so all I can say is good luck in YMCA. And happens that I was even sicker than before. Fever. Just dunno why whenever sth bad happens, I have a fever. 2 days without sleep. Was tired but I couldn't sleep. Not able to accept the fact. Monday back to school. Everyone was asking me the same question. "Are you unhappy?" Just tired of answering everyone. Things went well for a few days. Went abit hyper. Well... learnt from jackie. :) Few homework->more time to sort things out->rest time. (Just so free) But friday I didnt seem to be able to take it anymore. Everything's fine in the begining, but when days past by, somehow just give up acting I'm tired of acting. Faking a smile while hiding all the pain inside isn't a healthy way to do so. Thx Pauline, Jackie and YY for everything. It's been a great help. Thinking about my past. Sth happen like this before. And before I dun have any real friends to count on. You should noe wad to do. So the next week was distracted. Taking the wrong train, humilating myself in english class (God. why did I say a train ticket instead of a movie ticket?) almost called _______ instead___________.( If I realli say this out, wonder how am I going to fix this mess), doing my math h/w twice... (Ms chai must have think I am crazy) I gotta focus rite now. Have been drifting off in class... To be honest, I am never like this. Just rite now did many stuff at the last minute. Well.. it's something i need to get use to. Received Progress report. Hmm... dissapointed again. Haha. Jackie says Shopping helps when you are down. Hmm.. still thinking abt it so I dun think so. Maybe I just need some time to let go of this. It's sth hard but I have no choice too. So ending off here... I dun feel like writing anymore.
Oh I forgot. And also Josh, good luck in RCHK.
New blog. Didn't feel like using my old blog anymore. Just felt like starting fresh, forget about what happened before.
So back to my life. Well.. didnt update my old blog for more than three weeks. Many stuff happened during that period of time. People breaking up, people getting back together, new couples (Maybe?) People who aren't that trustable anymore. Everyone's changing. Well... for me... still the same me...didnt change that much. Change just to fit in somehow. Things have been hectic ever since start of Sec 3. 3 test in 4 days, GP essay+product, coping with subjects and demands. Only slept a few hours everyday. Suffering from Insomia. GP's killing me. Mr Ong told me that GP's easy. Hah! Like real. Many ups and downs for me. Suddenly things are perfect--the way I want it to be, the next second, everything's gone. Have been learning to face the truth and just move on. This guy have been telling me to stop being a goody goody or being too kind to people. To be honest, I am not the girl you think you see. Nobody knows the other side of me. The bad side in fact. Well.. I am not pretending to be a different person. I just didnt show the other side of me. And besides treating people nicely well at least lesser people hate me. Talk about my past... Hai. forget about mentioning it. It's disasterous. Anyway, Sec 3 is kinda of a bad start. People lying to each other... Just right now dunno who to trust. Even the closest friends can't be trusted. Ok maybe? Better to keep some stuff to yourself after all huh? And things are not meant to know, it's better not to. Cause it gets u to hell lot of trouble. Too much on my mind Maybe worth seeing a counselor again?
I am just tired of studying rite now. Just dun wanna touch the books and slack off instead. Realli lucky I got the permission not to go to camp. Actually, I wanna be alone and sort of my life instead. Hear my inner thoughts How am I going to deal with certain people, certain goals, certain choices. Everything's a mess.
May not be updating that often as last time anymore. Been coming back at 7pm and not enough time to do h/w. Right now sick...Had a bad sore throat and yet I have to shout at my sisters. So yeah g2g. Bye.
Favorite SONGS: Just Want You To Know by Backstreet Boys, If I Let You Go by Westlife, Boulevard Of Broken Dreams by Green Day, Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls, My Love by Westlife, What If by Ashley Tisdale, When I Look At You by Miley Cyrus, Because Of You Kelly Clarkson, When I'm WIth You by Westlife, ...
Dislike SPORTS: Hockey, Long Distance Running, Baseball
Dislike BRANDS: erm... China Brands?
Dislike FOOD: Rojak, Bitter Guord, Eggplant, ..
DESIRES:
1. ipod touch
2. Get in a good JC (nah. I doubted it) Most likely polytechnic
3. Contact lens
4. Get good grades
5. Hapiness
6. Books
7. Sunglasses
8. Hmmm... couldn't think of anymore yet... updating later...
